It is as it is

Still having a hard time getting it through my head that S is gone. It is just so hard to take.
What will I do when my dogs get sick? I have her partner, of course, and he is also a wonderful vet. But she knew them better, was with them longer.

What if the practice changes so much that I am not comfortable there? What if they close all together. These two vets had practiced together for 27 years. That is a very long time.

Oh, I wish it could be like it was at the beginning. When everyone was healthy and young and alive.